tonight was pretty good i must say, chatted with an old friend and hung out with j dogg.. hehe
js foots prolly killing her as i sit in the kitchen drinkn waterr and playin round on my myspace. but i hope shes asleep that way she'll b relieved of her pain.
sitting here is rather relaxing as i wright this blog in darkness and listen to a train roaming by,
it kinda makes you think about all the shit that comes and goes in your life. i need to start learning to be a little less insecure about the things in my life and learn to embrase all the good i have instead of hidding away from them like a child.
im just thankful for what i have now in my life and im tryn to stop worrin bout what i use to have and what i wish i would once again be able to have. life does indeed go on and each step in lifes just another learning experience that you can take lessons from. embrase the lessons because if you dnt all your doing is gettn in a rutt, and not only is it unhealthy but its selfish to the people around you that care for you and just wnt the best to come outa whatever shitty thing thats happening in ur life.
outta all the rediculous, horrible shitty thing thats happend thus far in this life of mine the one thing thats impacted me the most was the death of my father. but ive taught myself to think of this tragety as a bettering for him. he wasnt a lazy man but he kept going even though his body was teling him to back off a lil because he knew he had to keep strong and make a living for all his children, because thats all he had ever strived to do was keep his family happy and well.
even though he left us so early he still provides for at least me, i know hes still with me and i can feel his preasence close to my heart every damn day. not a day, let alone a secong goes by that hes not on my mind or my prayrs. i love my dad and he'll always be here with me not in body but in spirit and i have to face that fact and learn from it all
treasure what you have in life now because it can all be gone in a blink of an eye.
i love u dad 2-07-1963_9-26-08
thank you jocelyn and whitney for bein here for me...i know i can confide in you.. Always
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