cries of a wandering mind...

tonight was pretty good i must say, chatted with an old friend and hung out with j dogg.. hehe
js foots prolly killing her as i sit in the kitchen drinkn waterr and playin round on my myspace. but i hope shes asleep that way she'll b relieved of her pain.

sitting here is rather relaxing as i wright this blog in darkness and listen to a train roaming by,
it kinda makes you think about all the shit that comes and goes in your life. i need to start learning to be a little less insecure about the things in my life and learn to embrase all the good i have instead of hidding away from them like a child.

im just thankful for what i have now in my life and im tryn to stop worrin bout what i use to have and what i wish i would once again be able to have. life does indeed go on and each step in lifes just another learning experience that you can take lessons from. embrase the lessons because if you dnt all your doing is gettn in a rutt, and not only is it unhealthy but its selfish to the people around you that care for you and just wnt the best to come outa whatever shitty thing thats happening in ur life.

outta all the rediculous, horrible shitty thing thats happend thus far in this life of mine the one thing thats impacted me the most was the death of my father. but ive taught myself to think of this tragety as a bettering for him. he wasnt a lazy man but he kept going even though his body was teling him to back off a lil because he knew he had to keep strong and make a living for all his children, because thats all he had ever strived to do was keep his family happy and well.

even though he left us so early he still provides for at least me, i know hes still with me and i can feel his preasence close to my heart every damn day. not a day, let alone a secong goes by that hes not on my mind or my prayrs. i love my dad and he'll always be here with me not in body but in spirit and i have to face that fact and learn from it all

treasure what you have in life now because it can all be gone in a blink of an eye.
i love u dad 2-07-1963_9-26-08
thank you jocelyn and whitney for bein here for me...i know i can confide in you.. Always

why hello there

hah i havent been on here in quite sometime, but im back and ready to talk.
lol alot has happened since my last post

ok, well latley nothing much has been going on in my so called life. lol im such a loser (:
no but really latley ive just been hangn out with my two good pals whitney and jocelyn.

hahah ok me and whit decided it was ok to stay up all damn night hah and man were we wrong we felt soo sick hahah but all in all great night we played on our myspaces and played dbz hahaha i kicked some major ass!!! and f*ck you kidd buu your ass is mine next time im over!!!!!!

hahah as of this moment tho im at J's wrighting this junk that we call a blog playing on uve guessed it myspace. but im soo verrrrrry excitedd!!!!!! i have come in contact with an old friend i havnt talked to in over 4years!!!! kellie lol she was mii bfff in 7th grade wen i lived in woodland!!! this is very crazie shitttttttt!!!!!!!!! wahahahahah

im quite hyperr now tho hahahahah im shaking with hypernessness?! wtf XD hahaha
my lifes on a standstill as of now tho nothing of great interest has presented myself jus dealing with drama frm mii ex"s but theyll get over it and somehow move on with there poor pathetic thing they call lives heheh im mean but owell serves them right hahah

im lost and dnno what to talk bout so .....ok thanx bye :)