"i don't give a f**k if your drunk or not"

haha soo umm this is exciting yea? my first blog....we'll i dnt understand what you bastards see in it but i suppose i'll learn 2 love it? .................we'll this shitty years finally almost possibly maybe over! thank the lord! i just praise god for all the friends and support ive been given throught the year and especially the last few excruciating months of this god forsaken year! ok lol enough emo'ness from me haha.

ummmmmmm...info time yes? I am the amazing cool wonderfully sarcastic Amanda lol ..i can sometimes be called ...yes dare i say it a "subeta junkie!" horrible nasty habbit that fucking subeta! stay away from it! lol i am rather enfatuated with Hollywood Undead hence the "i don't give a fuck if your drunk or not" lyric hahah ohhhh ill start saying that dame lyric for dayzzzz lol. twilights my favorite movie but im not one of those crazy obsessive phycho bitches haha ohhh you kno damn well who you guys are so dnt deny WHO YOU TRULY ARE!!!

my life only has meaning because of my friends... they've helped me sooo much these last few months thanx whit haley kammy And especially you J...you are always just a call away and ikno if i ever needed anythn youd jump at the chance to help me out and for that i love you! you and your family mean the world to me. and i thank god every day that i have you guys, you guys are like a second family...tthank you! i dnt even kno how to repay you for all that you've done for me since ma Dad passed!.....i dnt even kno what to say exept thank you....

Whitney, i love you kidd your like a sister to me... and yes even you have done quite a bit for me...your one of the very few that i can talk to about my problems ...and i kno your always there to listen... thank you! i need to learn to show my feelings better and by talking to you it really does help! i kno we've been fighting quite a bit latly but you gotta understand i only have your best interests at heart! i love you! and id never do anything to hurt you!

You kno....this year hasnt exactly been the highlight of my life? its still rather hard to think that my dads gone...every so often i have a point in which i think none of it had happened and he's in the other room or just at work...September seemed like an eternity from now...but its only been 3 months and some times i forget the little things about him...but i still think about the fun me and him had earlier on this year and i'll always cherish those moments! this is a subject that i try not to talk about...it hurts....but at least hes in heaven ...or so thats what i think and what i pray...i'll always have him in my heart...R.I.P Fredrick Thomas Sawyer "and here at the end, at the end of the hurt,all the pain aint the same...."

Eddie Trevor and Johnathan deserved to have more respect from me this year... i aint to proud to admit that i've been quite a bitch this year...(just thought id add a little sumthn for the 3 of them haha even tho not one of them will ever read thizz shittt lol) "And i wanna go back to the start,back where we started from,and i know its been so long, i was wrong, i was wrong,i was wrong all along..."

this blog that i have been writing is basically about my life... my life is full of good shit and bad shit..and for the people that try to controll my life and what i do.....and what i say and i aint gnna put up with it.."my lips are sewn shut,i watch myself bleed,they push and pull, its killing me within.."... i controll y own life and what i do so if yall really wnna call some one fake and a follower look in the mirror u bitches ain no better than the insults your handin out..ahh ha!"Bitches I hope you know,I won’t stop till I hit that hoe,Baby come say hello "....

so i've been thinking whats a good statement to end this god forsaken blog?? then it hit me!?

"i don't give a f**k if your drunk or not" .....Peace Bitches!!